Russian-born, Lancashire-based bedlamcore artist n0trixx has released her new single ‘hysteria [БЕГN]’, the latest song to be taken from the debut album A Catalogue of Madness and Melancholia out March 13th. The album is available to pre-order here.
‘hysteria [БЕГN]’ tackles Depression with a propulsive beat as Suicidal Ideation grows with her twisted rap flows in her native tongue. Written during a severe depressive episode, this track is n0trixx’s most vulnerable offering. The mind loops through dark possibilities, searching for escape, while the word “БЕГИ” (run) echoes like a haunting command. It is a sonic manifestation of being trapped inside your own despair.
The video directed by n0trixx captures this suicidal ideation in the manifestation of an eerie stalker, who upon each step and corner turn becomes ever more imposing and inescapable.
Regarding the single n0trixx says, “This song means more to me than I can put into words. It’s a celebration. About two years ago I was walking through one of the darkest periods of my life and I was on the edge of ending it. What stopped me from doing something stupid were my two little ones – I obviously couldn’t do that to them. So I powered through. I survived.
This song was written during that crisis. I remember the lyrics coming to me while I was routinely planning my escape. It was giving me that sense of control over my life. And I just put all of that disturbing feeling into a song.
When I was producing the instrumental to it, I didn’t want it to sound depressing. I wanted to break the cliches. You can be dancing through your life and still desperately wanting it to end.”
The forthcoming debut album A Catalogue of Madness and Melancholia captures, addresses, and reflects on several different mental health issues that have had a profound impact on n0trixx.
Continuing about the album she says, “A Catalogue of Madness and Melancholia is a journey into the depths of a troubled mind. I was halfway through writing the album when I realised that every track I was working on was a sonic representation of a certain mental health issue. Further into the album, I managed to create a unique collection of disorders in an audio form. It invites the listener to experience what it might be like to struggle with one of these but also stresses how important it is to take care of mental wellbeing.”
A CATALOGUE OF MADNESS AND MELANCHOLIA TRACK LISTING
1. Into the depths [intro]
2. hysteria [БЕГN]
3. Revenge On God feat. Yentl Cambre
4. harmless feat. Sarunas Brazionis
5. Hé Toi
6. St. Chaos feat. J.A.
7. Spectrum
8. Catalepsia feat. Warren Willis
9. Living Nightmares feat. FMA + 12 Gage
10. narc (i’m so happy that you’re dead)
11. you are loved [outro]
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